"I'm working on a new me.
Not because the old me is bad
but because the old me can improve."
About a year ago I thought, enough is enough; it's time to crack down, put myself higher on my priority list, and work on a better me. I've made great progress but still have a ways to go. And as much as I want to get to my goal yesterday, I think I've finally come to an understanding that this is a life long journey. And for that reason, I need to enjoy what I'm doing. What I'm doing needs to be a sustainable lifestyle change. What do I love doing? I love the active part of the changes I've made so far: lifting weights at the gym, dancing, bike rides, and yoga. What I don't like is the restrictive dieting part. Dieting sucks!
|Progress so far: about 25 lbs!!|
In May I found Eat to Perform. I bit the bullet and joined. It's a complete mindset change. It's been exciting and a little scary. Just as the name says, I've been eating to perform. I'm currently not dieting, and for the most part won't be. The exciting part is how much better and more fun my workouts have been. Long story short, the concept is body recomposition. Most of the time I will not be in a calorie deficit but eating what I burn with the main focus being to have better workouts and to gain muscle. More muscle = more calories burned. In about a month I will be switching to a PFFL (performance focused fat loss) cycle where I will have a calorie deficit. However, it will short and not drastic. Then I will work back up to eating what I burn. So, I'm in the first phase, and have been for awhile. I've built up my calorie intake to closely match my output and here's what has happened: I have more energy. The weights I'm lifting have increased much much faster. I have much more freedom to what I eat. Because of that, my cravings have decreased. I'm enjoying food and enjoying my workouts even more. We went on vacation last month and I just ate how I wanted with zero guilt or worry about derailing my progress.
|Flex Friday w/Sean. He's also working on his "muscle bumps".|
Now here's the scary part, the mental part. Before ETP my mindset had been on the scale going down. During the last few months the goal wasn't for the scale to go down but to focus on my performance and gain muscle. While the scale has fluctuated and has even dipped down lower than it has in a very long time, my weight has been pretty steading. And at times even started to creep up some. It's very hard to see that and very hard to just trust the process. However, I think about it and realize that the scale may be a little higher than I started but my measurements are the same and my clothes are not getting tight. Add on to that that the weights at the gym are going up. I'm obviously on the right track. It has to be muscle that I'm gaining.
|My little ballerina and I:|
I'm returning to ballet.
Maddy is entering her 4th year.
Emily is beginning her 1st year.
Anyways, that is where I am now. I am excited that I will be doing a PFFL soon as I'm ready to see the scale start to go down again. Another thing that I'm excited about, I think I'm ready to start trying new things with weight lifting. I think it's time to tear down my
fear nervousness of using the barbell. I've started dreaming about doing deadlifts so I guess it's time to give it a try.
I plan to check in from time to time here but the following links lead to where I keep track of everything:
I log my food on MyFitnessPal (Dani262)
I use my Vivofit (Fit4my3) to track my activity.
I have a spreadsheet as well....yea, I'm a data nerd! It has my daily numbers: calorie goal/in/out, weight, body fat %, LISS (low intensity steady state) activities, PR (personal records: upping weights at the gym)
I even a 3-ring binder that has every single workout I've done through ActiveTrax (FitQuest @ the ymca). In it I keep a monthly calendar for my activities as well. Seeing it fill up is motivating. My goal for August is to see even more of those squares filled in. I will share my August calendar when it's done.
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